A bit late but Happy New Year! In a nutshell, the past year was eventful. Some happy events, some not so happy events and some devastating events. I have just come to learn that the sooner you learn to count your blessings and appreciate what you have, you will be a happier person. It is when you are faced with some major obstacles in life that you come to really believe in cliche sayings such as 'where there is a will, there is a way'. I usually never make set resolutions, what I have noticed with every year is that I have been learning to accept myself more and more. As long as you can shut out all the extreme expectations and standards the world sets, you can see how perfect you are. This year, I resolve to accept all that I am and of course how much ever more I can be. This world is getting too loud with all these staggering standards, to make it worse, the social media noise never dies down. Saying that I completely ignore it would be lying. Sharing pictures and information on social networks can be quite rewarding if you can do it within limits. You don't want to fall into a black hole and shut yourself out completely...that I don't support.
I am very, very soft to the touch, almost wobbly. I like wearing three coats of black mascara. I have a bunion on both my big toes. I wish children didn't have to fly on planes. I like crispy fried salmon skin. I like the TV on even when I am not watching it. The call to prayer sometimes makes me feel melancholy. I don't have too many friends. Sometimes I smell of curry. I don't have any qualms admitting that I went to an Indian school for primary, secondary and high school. I have hips that are much larger than the rest of my body. I love my mom's handmade ruti (flat bread) with fresh ghee. My sister and I share some special jokes no one will ever understand. I love how my dad gets excited about grocery. I can't live without my jojoba oil and tea tree oil. I will listen to hindi songs real loud to cheer myself up. I am not good at math. I have to sleep on white sheets. I have to turn the fan on for white noise because it makes me uncomfortable when I can hear the clock ticking. I don't know how to apply nail polish neatly. I am neither trendsetter nor follower. I like hugging and smiling. I cannot be in a room full of balloons. I fear resentment. I have to drink tea in white mugs. I don't have a job. I don't drink or smoke but don't have a problem if you do. I trust people easily. I will never buy a Louis Vuitton bag. I get a headache from scented candles (even the very expensive ones!). I have to say a prayer every night before bed. I love cooking for friends and family. I have uneven eyelids. I love dressing up to the nines. I can't tolerate sugar substitutes. I don't have a car. I like staying at home and watching cheesy movies. I am not shy to admit I'm Bangladeshi. I don't believe in 'those who can't do teach'. I can do the american accent quite well. I love a busy kitchen. I never turn all the lights off.
those are just a few of the things that I have accepted about myself and makes me who I am. Oh another thing...I totally believe this, sometimes while we've accepted ourselves, we worry about not getting acceptance from others. I am kind of midway on that... I don't have a list of what I am going to accept about my life and myself this year. I think the trick is to not think too much about it and to just let it be. Happy living everyone :)